Hello Everyone! I am alive.

On the May 19th just do not know if I would be.

I have been blessed with a TBI and times it is hard to know "how sick I am"

I have also been blessed with a Hemiplegic Migraine that is very interesting trip!!!

There times when I go to bed at night and I really do not know if I am going to wake up.

There are other ills due to living out of the country and not being able to get a specialist even though tax dollars were paid. 

We are lucky here that there is help if you really look for it. Yes, help if you really look for it.\
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it is hard to look; it is frustrating to look but do it. Ask questions to other people to get help?

​Well, I am here looking at some old pieces I made.  They are really good looking if you take the time to see the uniqueness in them.  

I am going thru a creative phase and it is not jewelry or pewter but landscape.  I have had myself consumed with my yard and house plants.  There are a few errors but time will tell. I know the birds like them and the bees.  Got to help those bees.   

I want to get back to my jewelry and my metal work..  I have also been tired; it is a tired I have never felt before... Yes, with a TBI you get tired.  I do not know anyone that does not expect a totally recovered TBI. (there is a such thing.. they are able to go back to work and able to do school or do a lot of other things)  I can only do art and create stuff; sometimes I am so proud but a lot of days lately I am down about it.  I am missed so much.

I have missed sailing; I have missed just jumping in my car and say "I am going to visit this person and that one" 
Instead I have to rely on Facebook and it can be a drag. Lots of people that I like do not communicate anymore.  Just tired of being the one to say "remember me?"""" 

Also, I have had so many misspelled words on FB.  Geez, you would think I am losing it but it is not that I review it but then a few woods are always messed up.  I am on their list to kick off from a few of my past political views  No free speech.   

Then as years have gone on, bam, I have lost a love one or a friend or a friends spouse this past year ... I know they are in heaven and I am optimist concerning the life of the ones left behind. It makes me wonder; will I  be missed.  I do not think so; I am just one that will be on the LHS list or Hapeville list. I realize how much children mean to your life and grandchildren and spouse.

My early life was so hard I just could not bring a child into the world with all that pain. By the time I could I still was not married and decided "Old Maid" I will be.   

Now don't get me wrong. I have probably had more fun than most people with all the places I have lived and visited. 

Back to TBI, God has me here for a reason so maybe someone will tell me. Is it inspiration? Is it kindness and support? Is it the Love of Jesus Christ?  Is God saying "Hey, there are a few more people I want in your life before its time."  

Look up my Instagram or Pinterest or FB for Gemassist.. Google me and see that I love you more than you think. Also, remember I can not fix you; I have to keep on steppin' and truckin' each day I live.

Invite me sometime so I can see you.. Hug YOU and say "What a wonderful life and how beautiful you are in our older years!"

All the Best from "Peaching Around", Deborah Marie